Some say love is a vibration, then so is hate, and every emotion must too, hold a vibration.
Have you ever walked into a room, and felt the energy of the room?
Does it give you a good or bad feeling?
That’s a vibration. Simple!
We don’t need rocket science to identify a vibration.
So, what is love?
…………and what is hate?
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Love is a journey
After my parents divorce at the age of 14, my world and foundation…. and concept of love I grew up with, abruptly ceased to exist.
Shortly after, my mother moved to the other side of the world…literally from England to Australia…in pursuit of love coincidentally! I resided with my father who later, disowned me, shortly after my 18th birthday.
It was a harsh thrust into the adult world.
Consequently, in my early twenties, I struggled with finding contentment with any type of love vibration. I experienced the ups and downs of love, hate and mental debate along with insomnia, bulimia and chronic endometriosis.
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My lack in self worth landed myself in a physically abusive relationship….which I believed at the time was based on love and it was my fault for failing my father.
I was so wrong.
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Love is never violent, shallow or loving of a image
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On a Paris Catwalk 1995
The young woman in the above photo is walking a cat walk in Paris. This is a photo of me taken in 1995 age 22.
Some may be in awe, even in love with the idea of her.
But, on the catwalk, the young woman was sporting a painful black eye. The make up artist used heavy make up to even up her eyes. And so she seemingly walked down a Parisian catwalk with two black eyes.
I recall walking down the catwalk, cameras flashing, people ooing and ahhing as I swayed and turned, commenting on how beautiful I looked. My inner world a mess. I remember thinking to myself, this is all so wrong.
The world of modelling, where image is priority, is probably one of the worst industries for building self-worth.
This day was a turning point for me. It was time for me to discover self-love.
I understood the concept of love, but was yet to embody the experience of it.
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The Art of Self Love
Come April 2005, age 33, I fell pregnant with my first child. It was unplanned, a miracle even, as I had accepted a childless life with my chronic endometriosis.
The inner glow I felt with this child was something new to me. It felt warm and loving.
I embraced the future and basked in this feeling of love and acceptance.
But this child had a heart defect beyond repair. A boy, I named James, I gave birth to him and had to let him go. The emotion of grief and love was overpowering.
By a miracle, during the short time of knowing him, I learnt to love and take care of myself through him. He taught me so much about self- love. It was pure, unconditional love.
I made a promise to him that I would love myself from that day forth.
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Awakening to love and your own story
When I started to write this blog today, I was excited to write a blog on Love, but had little ideas formed as to what I would actually write about.
But now I realise as I write, love is a story, its my story, its your story and its a journey.
The hate around me has played its part in enabling me to step onto a journey in self love and understanding what love is.
Perhaps its the experience of what love is not, can empower us to truly understand and appreciate what love is.
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Believe in love
I have never given up on love. Despite low self-worth for many years, I knew I wanted a family one day and all the love that can come with it. But, I had lots of figuring out to do first.
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At the age of 42 years, I finally met my husband. I am today experiencing my love vibration. It takes work, and most importantly, the setting of healthy boundaries and Leaps of Faith! Today, now in my fifties, I have learnt through experience to make wiser choices.
With our children from previous relations, we get on famously with plenty of laughs … and love!
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Take a Leap of Faith
My publications, A Leap of Faith and An Artists Story share my journeys out of love, hate and mental debate into taking a Leap of Faith, in inspirational prose, normal write and colourful art.
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For all the reasons I cannot explain, adversity has helped me find love.
You can too!
With Love and a Leap of Faith…
Anna Jane
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